Some of the signs and portents were too painful to acknowledge. One night at Hall Street I stood at the entrance of our bedroom while Robert slept and had a vision of him stretched on a rack, his white shirt crumbling as he turned to dust before my eyes. He woke up and felt my horror. “What did you see?” he cried. “Nothing,” I answered, turning away, choosing not to accept what I had seen. Though I would someday hold his ashes in my hand.